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sleeping

wake up, She whispered
but still we slept
and spirit that came in infinite forms
became one face
and those who saw God
in the trees and rocks and sky and rivers
were exiled or burned or silenced

wake up, She said
but still we slept
and fashioned boats from trees
large enough to house men by the hundreds
we conquered new lands
and enslaved our brothers
and became great kings

wake up, She urged
but still we slept
and littered our earth
with trains
and factories
and endless miles of wires
we became God
and made our own kind of fire
so the dark would never come

wake up, She cried
but still we slept
and incinerated populations
for the color of their hair and eyes
we invented cars
and washing machines
so life would be easy
and made bombs shaped like mushrooms
that decimated villages of mothers and children

wake up, She begged
but still we slept
and those with flowers in their hair
learned a new language:
binary
and our houses grew
and our cities
and our people
and we needed more food of course
so we invented sprays
and fertilizers
and had to breed more cattle
to feed the crowded masses

wake up, She screamed
but still we slept
and the oceans rose
and the storms thrashed
and the rivers dried
and the fires burned
and the cancerous growth of humanity grew larger
until we made the most powerful bomb of all
and aimed it at Mother Earth herself

suddenly She went quiet
and we woke at last
only to find we had all drowned
no longer had gills

~ jennifer sundeen
september 2017

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Jacob’s Well

parched
our drying dying rivers
so thirsty
obese children never satiated
dam her waters
new spawning ground for their social dis-eases
Her heart vessels constrict
from this civilization of man
who fear the power of Her flow

the great menopause of man
a man-o-pause
men! pause
amidst the frenzied building of your dams and walls and skyscrapers
swim to the deepest center of Her well
where Her sacred mysteries lie
and find Her ancient teachings there

for women know
in our time of change
the alchemical process:
how to take life blood
that once flowed freely
and transform it into singing rivers of freedom

look there, quick now
Her holy well an invitation
to submerge within Her loving waters
or watch the rising of her tides
until we drown

~jennifer sundeen, september 2017
to The Patriarch

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Wild Daisies

hazy pools of four o’clock light
spilled onto our picnic blanket
the one you tie dyed in the back yard
orange popsicle bursts of summer

you sketched the swelling waves and seagulls
with your charcoal pencil
we read novels out loud
gossiped about movie stars
painted swirls of henna on our bodies
lazy cats stretched out on bellies
tanned limbs sprawled like golden rays of sun

it was the soft space in between dreaming and waking
and for a brief crystal moment you were happy
before the undertow dragged you beneath again
and out beyond reach

a jelly jar bouquet filled with queen ann’s lace
beach roses
blue thistles
and wild daisies

~jennifer sundeen, july 2017

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Expectations

i did not expect
in Mother Africa
that i would need my winter jacket
and a hat

i did not expect
the photographs of the round grass huts with dirt floors
from my sixth grade history book spoke truthfully
the paltry mud walls a poor barrier
to keep the darkness out and the shade in
mothers off to work the thirsty fields and gather water
while fathers drink til sundown
children sauntering to the crowded school that has no plumbing
no food no lunch hour no lunch and usually not even breakfast
the little ones left behind play games outside on hardened ground

i did not expect the dry
the brown cloak that would cake my clothes my boots my skin my hair
the taste of dirt coating my tongue
if you go, do not worry whether you should drink the water
there is no water

i did not expect the unfenced immediacy of nature
a single breathing organism perfect in its totality
the beating drum of the one heart
our dancing interconnectedness so palpable
how one act indeed affects the whole

or the soulful chestnut eyes that speak of hunger and drought and sickness
but also kindness and laughter and humble acceptance
there are no victims
nothing given nothing owed

i did not expect to see the proud fourteen-year-old child bride walking home
her sleeping baby slung upon her back
dried mice heaped in the basket on her head
just enough to feed her husband and his family
we stopped to give her a ride of course

i did not expect to take home with me
the baby the mice the girl that moment
and that expectation would choose to stay behind instead

~jennifer sundeen, june 2016

 

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Reciprocity

we are the reciprocal operation
let me repeat myself
we are the reciprocal operation
trees and humans

the trees are our lungs turned upside down
our lungs are the trees turned upside down
trees hold the necessary ingredients we need to live
we hold the necessary ingredients trees need to live

the ancient trees whom Mother lovingly birthed are dying before their time
our brothers and sisters whom Mother lovingly birthed are dying before their time
we are the reciprocal operation
Shiva and Shakti
without one there is no other

would you as easily cut out your lungs
the way we cut down our trees
for houses
for toothpaste
for shoe polish
plastic fillers
tires
and diapers
for tax forms
turpentine
lacquer
glossy magazines
and fireworks
golfballs
and hairspray
for boxes given at the holidays
wrapped in paper of colored tree ink
hiding dime store excesses
alluding yourself that they contain love?

would you cut your lungs out of your very body
and lay them at the foot of a tree as Prasad?

because our warming earth needs more
condominiums
green chemical lawns
office buildings
and strip malls
chain restaurants
supersized stores
and eight lane highways
of asphalt
resurfaced each summer
with eight hour lines of cars
sitting and waiting
smoogging and choking
dying to just get home already
because work starts early on monday

let me repeat myself
dying

~jennifer sundeen, october 2015

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Swan Songs

you know this to be true:

someday we will say goodbye
to everything and everyone
we have ever known

in fact
such beautiful Swan Songs happen
a thousand times a day

the exhalation
the expiration
the ebbing back
a heart expanding

but know this too:
goodbye is simply
a matter of perspective

and there is always the One
on the other side
saying hello

~ jennifer sundeen, august 2014

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Divine Mother

a man once offered
to reveal to me
the Divine Mother
said he could summon Her
to appear before me
as pure radiance manifest

he had learned this from his Guru
in India
in the ashram
and now the teachings of his teacher
must surely be shared
for the mere cost of $108

i appreciate the offer
i gently said
but from the moment
i open my eyes each morning
and see the trees greeting me outside my window
and hear the birds awaken at dawn

and throughout the day
as I exchange pleasantries
with the nice girl behind the coffee counter
hear the belly laugh of the toddler in aisle two
notice the adoring gaze of the lady walking her retriever
and her old dog’s joy as he rolls in the grass beneath him

and later
watching the shy deer eating the greenery
smelling the fallen leaves blanketing the earth
listening to the flute notes at the river’s edge
and the dancing rain making puddles in my driveway
as i return home

and each evening
when supper simmers
and my daughters play
and the night owl calls
and the stars delight
She is with me

in all things
in all moments
in all of creation
i see the Mother
and She is tenderly smiling and sweetly singing
and holding me in Her loving embrace

to find Her
i said
is easy
one need only open
the eyes of one’s heart
and truly see

the man stepped over
to the edge of the window
and peeked outside
as if afraid
She might really be there
after all

~ jennifer sundeen, november 2013